Life is hard to understand

Sometimes you question about what God really wants. We live day by day without realizing that our life will come to an end someday, maybe today, tomorrow, or in a year, or maybe we will live for 100 years or more. No one knows the future. But the reason why we question God is that we hear about people dying at 35 of cancer or 6 months old babies that die before they even had the chance to live. Those are signals that should show us and wake us from our dreams that the end might be near, and maybe it is. Who knows? Live each day as if it was your last one, enjoy the happy moments in your life and appreciate every person you have in your life. Our moments are counted and in a blink of an eye everything can end, will you be happy with what you done so far?

Another lonely day

It's snowing outside. Everything is white and the snow looks so good when it doesn't have steps in it, just a sea of white, untouched by no one. It makes me think about all the little things in life that make my life brighter and easier, those kind of things that we don't notice because we are used to them being there. Like if you want to read you have an entire bookcase to read or if you are thirsty you have enough water to drink. While others don't. We often take things for granted, maybe we should thank God more for having those things. We are so blessed, but in the same time we feel so miserable and we want more and more.Just sit and reflect about this, how often do you pray and thank God for everything that he gave you? Your health, your family or friends that you have, people that you can count on. Not everyone is that lucky..

Words stuck in my head

Sometimes, all you need is someone to remind you about certain things. Yesterday, for example,  I was talking to by best friend and it was the first time we talked this year and I told him that I have a feeling that something will happen on my birthday and he said that in order for things to happen, I should make them happen by doing something. It was just one of those moments when you feel like something hit you and you realize things, he was right, we are responsible for what happens in our lives, so if we want things, we should make them true, but often our fear stops us from making our dreams come true.  The other thing that he told me and I kept thinking about even after we stopped talking was that I should learn to love myself, he was so right, so I hope to accomplish that this year, learn to accept myself more, body and soul, because nobody's perfect. 

2nd of January

This day will always be a sad day for me. Last year, on this day my grandma died. I will never forget that day. 2011 was one of the hardest years I have ever lived, and the beginning of 2012 was sad, I will remember that day forever. It's hard when you have time to realize that you will lose one of the persons you love most, because when it does happen it hits you hard and the pain is intense that you feel that your world might end. And now, a year after, I sit here and remember and what I learned from this last year is that I should remember her as the person that was all of her life and not how she spent the last months of her life in pain. And I should be happy that now she is there and doesn't feel pain anymore and I know she is watching me from above and she will always be with me. I miss you grandma..

Happy New Year !

Happy New Year world. I will start by saying that I don't like to make new year resolutions, because in the end I will abandon them, but I do have some wishes for this year. They are wishes that will make me focus more on my life and on myself, and that will make me a better person I hope. So the first wish for this year would be for me to be better and to work more and give more of myself for the projects or things I do. I want to give more to other people and offer my help without expecting to receive something in return. I want to focus on me by using my time for me too, and stop using my time for people that don't deserve it and don't appreciate it, I want to use my time wisely from now on. So this year I will take things slowly and put one foot before the other, I won't rush to do things, I will focus to be myself more in the real life and I hope that by the end of the year positive changes will occur. I will end by saying that I found myself going back to the post I published last year, exactly this day, and after that day things weren't the same. So remember what I said back then "I would like to look at my past with a smile and believe my life was worth living". 

                                                                                          Don't lose hope.