25th of December

It's Christmas Day. Merry Christmas. Well, this day should have been a happy one surrounded by family and friends and joy and smiles. My day was far from being like that. I cried today. A lot. My dad was the reason I was sad, he acts like he's the boss of everything and everyone even when the rest of the people tell him he is wrong, he still says he is right. Always. In these kind of moments, I am full of anger and desperate to get away from all. But unfortunatelly I am still a student living with my parents and following their rules, because they told me one day "as long as you live in this house, you will follow our rules". I can't wait to be on my own, and this time I will get closer to this, one step at a time, because it's my life and I should live it using my own rules. No more games. Times go by and I do nothing. But things will change. Slowly they will change.

                                                                                                          Merry Christmas.

Another tear on my keyboard.

Sometimes people take advantage of you if you are too good, especially when you invest more time in something than they do. And that's when you must build walls, because giving yourself and putting your time into something that isn't productive isn't good for you and doesn't help into growing as a person. Why be there for someone that only thinks about himself, and never sees things the way you see them, not even trying. Wasting time for nothing. Maybe I am depressed and tomorrow I will see things in a different light, but today I will stop trying. 
I hope one day someone will make you cry as much as you made me cry.