Changes after changes

I've started this blog almost 2 years ago and things have changed a lot since then. I lost family members, I gained new friends, I learned to love myself more and enjoy the little things in life. Sometimes bad things that happen make you see life in a different light and re-evaluate things. That's what I did. I am at this age when I am trying to find myself and understand myself more, trying to find my place in this world. Because this world is crazy or has become crazy. We are not protected from bad things, we are a target. I wish I could make all my worries go away, and just live for the moment, but is it that possible? When no one is secure and you don't know what tomorrow brings, is it possible to just live for today and not worry for tomorrow? I am so blessed when other's don't even have where to live and food on the table, I have everything, and I wish I could make the world a little better by doing good things. And it's sad that when I do that people think I have something to hide, it's sad that the world has become so evil and people are running to earn more and more money. Well, I see the full part of the glass too, not everyone is like that, there are people that are actually changing the world, but they are rare and they hide, anonymous.

Routine is not my thing

I've often asked myself  if I am made for the daily 8 hour work program that most of people have. And I am kind of afraid I won't be able to handle it. It's like everything turns into routine, and I am not sure if that's how I want to spend the rest of my life, doing the same exact thing every single day of my life. It sounds boring and a waste of time, honestly. When will I have time to just live? A full day of work after another for a lifetime, I don't think I can do it. It's true, I earn money, but with what cost? I guess I will see what I will think in 6 months or in a year about it. But for now I have doubts about it. And it's sad to think that millions or billions of people live the same life, it's sad because you don't have time to enjoy life, you live to work, and work to live. And many people in my country work 8 hours a day but don't even earn enough to support their families. Some say money isn't everything, but actually it is, especially because nowadays you pay for everything, even rain water. I guess I have to see the positive things in my life, the rest should take second place. 

Sometimes just a "thank you" is not enough

It's funny how no one is there when you need them to be. I noticed that. You help people, because you are a good person, they say "thank you", but then that's it, they don't return the favour and you are left alone to solve your own problems all by yourself. Today, for example, I met a guy that liked astrology and numerology and he asked me about my birth date and he said that I am the kind of person that helps a lot, maybe too much he said, he was right, I help everyone that needs my help and at the end of the day the only thing I earn from that is the satisfaction that I helped someone, nothing else, just that.