Another tear on my keyboard #2

What do you do when you feel that people don't appreciate you and the friendship you have? When you feel that you are just the spare wheel? It's funny how people say they are going to change, but they don't and they still remain selfish and doing everything for themselves and thinking it's ok to ignore others, because they won't get upset, just because they are good people and they forgive. Well, those type of "kind people" get tired sometimes, and I got tired not just once, but many times. I talked about walls a long time ago, and they are building, they started building when I stopped talking about a certain topic and they are slowly growing in height. The only thing I can do is to protect myself from being hurt, or getting hurt as little as possible. And today is the first day of the rest of my life, this year is going too fast already. We are already in February and I feel like yesterday it was New Year's Eve, so there is no time to waste. Small changes come from inside, and I said at the start of the year that I want to focus more on myself, so I will try to delete all that is negative or ignore it, just ignore everything that makes me hurt..And remember that what goes around comes around.